Sacramento Music Circus (despite its strange name) is one of the most esteemed regional theatres in the United States. Every year they hold auditions in multiple cities. Basically, it’s a bitch to cast in one of their shows.
After 7 years of auditioning for them, I FINALLY got cast. I felt like a celebrity shortly after being offered the role. People started buzzing that I got it and I received a lot of hugs and congratulations from my fellow actors who stood in those long audition lines with me, day after day.
When the artistic director called me to offer me the role he said, “Theresa, you were the ONE person I picked out of 2000 people.”
Despite that huge compliment, I was nervous as HELL in Sacramento. I had one week to learn an entire show, and I was clean outta practice in the professional theatre world. I spent the past 7 years auditioning, not actually WORKING! I felt out of place in a world I had been trying to break in to.
As I was commiserating with one of my cast mates about my insecurities, he said to me, “Oh believe me. I’m scared too! I’m wondering when the director is going to realize that I’m a fraud.”
I realized that I too thought I was a fraud.
Fast forward 6 years and I’m now working in a high rise office, on the verge of being laid off because my new boss does not feel that I am qualified for my new position. I was hired before she got here.
She gave me my 90-day review and basically told me that I’m not up to par. We are to reconvene for a 30 day review at the end of May. Oh, I’m sooooo getting laid off, but that's ok. I don't like the corporate life anyways.
I am a Corporate Girl fraud and they found out.
Look, I tried like hell to quit acting and get a grown up job. I thought I could convince myself that I’d have fun playing the part of Corporate Girl.
- I bought a suit at Macy’s (my costume)
- I interviewed for this position (my audition)
- They asked me for a second interview (my call-back)
- They offered me the job (I got the part!)
What I am not – An Actor Fraud.
I have been performing and studying this art form my entire life. I have a legitimate degree in Performing Arts. I have been hired to perform on stage, in films, in commercials. I’ve been selected to sing on recordings and etc. I’ve even been asked to teach this craft. I am a professional, despite the fact that it’s difficult to make a living at it.
I realize now that I was not a fraud in Sacramento. I EARNED that role and I deserved it.
|Mom and Dad visiting me in my dressing room|